So much time has passed since I last made an entry.. As I spent last year, teaching away, I felt so much time slip by. The world flew by me, and I was so busy I didn't have time to see it go by. Such is the life of a teacher I guess. Makes me want to jab a pen into the eyes of the next person who says 'it must be nice to have your summers off'. Apparently people don't get that teachers only get paid for the school year portion. That pay we get in the summer time? Puh! It's just the money they with-held from our previous checks so they can get the interest off of it instead of me.
I got bored of teaching again. Although it's different from the substitute teaching in the students are /slightly/ more respectful of the full timer version since we know what crap they're capable of, the substitute teachers get away with not having to make the lesson plans or grading papers and projects in exchange for less pay. They're allowed to have lives. I can count on one hands the number of times I actually went out and had /fun/.
But it's ok. Switching jobs wasn't so hard. I decided a little bit after Hector came over to visit. Before the year was up, I gave my notice and I'd already secured a position with EMS by getting myself re-certified. I'm riding third person for the most part now but that's more of a formality than anything being that they were rather eager once they found out I've had past experience and can ride a cycle. I bet they're just counting the days til I complete the work to qualify as a Paramedic so they can slap me on one of the numerous bike paramedic openings they have.
I believe I can manage it this time. It's easier here. Most people won't allow you to get to 'know' them so there's nothing for me to hang onto.
And I believe with all that's happened... I'm starting to loose my ability to care as much. It's not completely gone but, that part of me that obsessively worried when the lady at the corner scraped her knee, or when my old neighbor was attacked...
This city has killed it.
Dorian, I still sometimes cry for. But it's not as bad as it used to be. Hector was, so great and understanding, It sort of makes me realize just what I left behind in Arizona.
And had I not formed a family here, I might have gone running back there with him.
I have a family here. Not by blood. But family. And the funny thing is, although I came here to escape this type of set up. I'm glad I wasn't able to avoid it.
Jax and I are sooooo going to spoil that child.
( /Now/ I'm /family/. - Jackson, Mike )
Mike asks Jackson and Bridget for a favor...